Monday, September 13, 2010

Safe in my Daddy's arms

I had a dream last night that I feel connected with what happened this morning between me and my dad. My dream starts out hanging with a couple of friends(both males) at one of their houses and we were all just talking and doing whatever. And then the two friends left me to go to McDonalds I think and I was stuck at one of the friend's house with his dad. It wasn't a total trashy place but a little dirty so I felt like it would be nice for me to vaccumm the rugs they had so I did and that scene led onto another where my mom was sitting there telling me how nice of you to clean for them, and my dad was also there but just standing there I think. The place was almost so bad that there were two greasy dirty mice behind the window curtain. They start to run around and someone eventually killed them. That scene lead onto another where my parents weren't in the house anymore but there was one of two friend's other friend who came to the house when the two other friends still hadn't came back. Someone had told me he was a rapist and an obsessed freak who'd go after any girl he saw that he liked. I was the girl he saw and liked. I freaked out and after he was talking to me I ran out of the house to go to my house to get away from him. Calling those two friends, no one would answer. So I get to my house and go to my room and lock the door. But I hear the freak coming and I was so scared. I ran out of my room and outside where he was chasing me. A family friend was around the neibhorhood and so I ran straight to him to protect me. It was a good safe place for a little bit till he had to do some errands and work around the neighborhood. I'd find my self trying to find him to stay with him till someone would notice that I wasn't at my friend's house to come save me. But it didn't happen right away. So while I would run after our family friend to stay with him I'd try to call my boyfriend to come and save me. Though, each time I'd dial the number it would be a different number I'd dial and I couldn't reach him. Untill finally I did and as soon as I did I see the freak and ran to my room because our family friend left. I locked my door and had a video camera recording so incase I could have evidence of what he would of done to me so he would go to jail. He broke through my door though and was trying to rape me.. I'd scream and as soon as I did my dad comes into the room and pulls the guy aside real hard. My took me and carried me to the living room and we went outside. That wasn't the end of it because as soon as my dad walked off to find the family friend the freak came out and again I was so scared. And right then I see my boyfriend and I thought he would come save me. But he saw that the freak wasn't really doing anything wrong. I was relieved that my boyfriend and his friend were there to control the guy from harming me but they thought the freak had ended his insanity and so they left and my boyfriend went to a dang basketball game instead to be with me. I knew that the freak hadn't stop his insanity by the look of his face. So I was so scared and right then my dad was there and I ran to his arms for protection, and he stayed with me till the freak was gone. That was the end of my dream. Well this morning my dad comes into the room I was in and tries talking to me, we had a small fight about what we were talking about, knowing he was only trying to protect me from what I was getting myself into with somethings. I was being rebellious about it and didn't want to listen till both of us broke down and I went to go sit by him and he held me in his arms like the dream had felt, safe in my daddy's arms. God was definitely telling me that my dad will protect me and I can't share with him anything even though I get in to my rebellious ways sometimes.. I'm so blessed to have the dad that I have and would be heart broken the day we ever lose what we have with each other.

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